The current energetic humming is like a dance between the sun and the moon. Between conscious and subconscious. Between in the flow and fighting against. Between good and bad. Between on and off. Between yes and no.
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In this dance, I am discovering desires. I am balancing my pain of not holding them in my hands. I am balancing the pain of holding in my hands unconsciousness. How does that work? There is knowing of hurts, of energy that is uncomfortable that has conglomerated into form. That form I am aware of. The details of who, what, why, and where this form came from is unbeknown to me. But I hold it anyway.
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Do you feel like your energy changes every 2.5 days? There are themes of my life that last that long, and swoosh, in a knew theme and out with an old one.
My attention span is similar. I am like a dragonfly.
There is a calling that is under a few layers before it hits the surface. This calling is for rhythm. For routine. The calling is accompanied with a fear. The fear might by the substance that is holding it a few layers down. The fear might be the same as my procrastination energy. And oddly enough, it might be the same fear that keeps me from taking a shower, because I don't want to be wet and cold.
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